Humanity amuses me…

Humanity amuses me
they tell me to love myself and be proud of myself
and then they tell me how ugly I am or how fat I am
Humanity amuses me

We changed words like love, beautiful and friend
to Lust, Hot and Bitch
humanity amuses me

Humanity amuses me
they teach me to find someone that treats me like a princess
but then they send me someone to abuse and destroy me
humanity amuses me

they let me believe that black life matters and religion is just religion
but then black people are killed left and right
and I am not accepted because of my religion
Humanity amuses me

Humanity encouraged me to be a dreamer and be someone
but they get a hammer and break my dreams into pieces
humanity amuses me

so tell me humanity should I Love Love Love or kill kill kill
tell me humanity should I dream or live in a nightmare
tell me should I wait to be treated as equal or accept reality
Humanity amuses me.

Note: this is my version of a poem or what I call a poem !! My first poem like ever so tell me what you think ? Much love ❤️ 


A piece of paper

Hello guys

First thing first let me start by saying am sorry for not posting on time but I had a long week full of results and university application forms and I was so overwhelmed with all the things that had to be done at this minute, back to today’s topic which s actually inspired by my overwhelming week .papers why do they hold such a power even though it’s just a piece of paper that can be cut into pieces in no time

If you haven’t noticed everything from the house you won over to your education has a paper document that says that you actually own or did this thing like literally a piece of paper says if you own the house that you lived in for 20 years  or you worked your butt of to get that A in math or not ( like seriously a paper says that you actually found that X ) like nowadays  if you don’t have a birth certificate that means you are not a human and you didn’t get born (I know it’s ridiculous) but why does a piece of wood hold that power is it because the human population is known for lying or is it we started doubting the  smallest things that we need something that proves our honesty ?

The irony that even these papers are written by a human so why are you not doubting them maybe that human played with that same paper in such a way that you won’t notice it so tell me do you trust that paper now? We all are just looking for excuses not to trust and be trusted



A letter to Myself

Dear Razan,

Hey it’s been a while or maybe it’s even the first time I talk to you heart to heart, I realized something today and I had to write you a letter so first let me just tell you a story so for a while I have been feeling really lonely and just like a broken cassette player that  repeats everything my life was literally waking up , going to the washroom, eat, watch some series ,  more eating then to add spice have a fight with my family and to add double the spice I start to feel absolutely sad about my life and repeat the next day just wishing that Tomorrow somehow the cassette will get fixed or if am lucky I get a new one and start recording new stuff which is under my control. I always go to bed thinking “okay tomorrow am going to fix this” and never do until I burst into tears one day and started to re-introduce myself to you I made new rules, kicked out people who were “Negative” and even started to make friends but that didn’t go so well too because I thought they will fill up the emptiness inside of me. don’t get me wrong some good had come from this journey I was able to adapt to my situation and started owning my feelings and not just ignore them, but I never realized that for me to make friends and be “social” I have to be friends with someone who’s with me 24/7 YOU, YES YOU RAZAN “ I can’t give love if I don’t have love “ that’s a saying I always hear but never believe it was always a cute quote that I tweet but never believe until now, so am here now to say hey would you be my friend and I want to promise you something:

1)    I would feed you all day (#teamfood)

2)    I will learn to love you and understand you

3)    I will treat you the way I want people to treat me

They say if you want something ask for it and I want a happy life so I have to start with being happy with You so the universe can attract happiness to my life and hey I know you want to be my friend because you always try to get my attention by being against me so now let us be one team and achieve whatever we want and for the first time I want to say I am in the way of saying I LOVE YOU so stay by my side

Lots of love